De-Deadening / Stagnation
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I was walking on a distant route, once. So, in a way to start the chatting understandably. It lasted at least two hours. And it did not happen just once, only in one place. I was holding my photographic memory in my hands, maybe that's why I can now describe the process.
After a few kilometers of egocentric wandering, as is the case with many people who get lost in the "power walk", I began to resent my own being. I decided to commit suicide, having been dead for quite a while. So I took out of my case the capturing machine of the surrounding area (or just the camera) and captured an image...
It was not a remarkable result on the film, since I have stopped the addictions of thought for years now. I just later realized that for a moment I stopped "existing", as someone more conceptual would like to say. And the truth is that, yes, I completely gave up my whole intrusive self within this moment. I stopped sweating my mind from walking and turned my gaze to some delimitation, so as not to be chaotic.
Let there be photochemical reaction and imprinted...
After taking the image that I was trying to cover up for a while, the release took place. I didn't have to think, I didn't have to delimit, I didn't have to freeze an absent experience in the viewer's memory. And like that, through the mystagogy of my poor walk, I was introduced to the posthumous mysteries of the moment. I managed, as the young man that I was, to capture an image in memory alone. That was the only thing I could capture through my lens. The representation of the memory of light, of form, of feeling, usually within four walls, at 5600 kelvin.
Holy Thursday after midnight
